1 oct 09

haiz today vry boring .. morning wake up at 5.00 am . so damn slpy . Then i walk out to nasi kandar buy a 'rati bakar' n eat. Actually is ivy buy 4 me . About 6 .15 v all reach hospital kajang ed. Tat time was still early so v all decided to go "pondok" sitting. 4 me i didin't slp at all cuz i was listening to my mp3 song n thinking bout my past memory . I was wondering why all this thing happen in my life then i think back again is maybe is my fate to know each of them . Actually i was very happy with everyone that i had meet in my own life . Although i can't be with them in this life i hope i will meet again in my next life . But what can do everyting was over. "Time is like a river. You cannot touch the same water twice , because the flow that has pass will never pass again . Enjoy every moment of life......" . I still remember the way i bagging on them but still i didin't get a good respond from them. Then my fren told me one thing " Never explain yourself to any one . Because the person who likes u doesn't need it , and the person who dislike you won't believe it " . Then i think back it was really true . Haiz can say start from that day until now i still cant sleep properly . " when we wake up in the morning ,we have two simple choices . Go back to sleep and dream , or wake up and chase those dreams . The choice is yours...." . When i think of this sentences i feel it was absolutely right. From now on i will wake up and chase all my dream. HAha thats was so funny. Then today in the ward so busy . I was posted in wad 4 cubical 5 4 today . Actually wad 4 is not a crowded ward but what makes a lot of work is dressing . Today my cubical got 3 dreesing . Got 2 is like normal dressing , but the other 1 bed 40 the diagnosis is infected bed sore . She can say the whole body is full of wound and she keep on bleeding like non stop . The whole body superficial skin is peeling the skin was so dry and somemore the all the wound so smeely even the flies oso like to stay around. I feel like vomit when i smell at the wound even that time i was with my mask on . Our clinical instructor use to tell us that the person is in DIL stage . She says waiting for us to do last office. That ah po make me think about my grandfater. My grandfater pass away when i wan in form 4 . I miss him so much . Then i remember i use to tell someone that in my heart only got 2 man that i really care and love . One is ' him 'and the other one is my grandfater. But nw it seems everyting change already and i juz can't do anyting about it . Haiz then i continue to do my dreesing that time i was juz an assistance. Can u all imagine six people doing a dreesing . (include our CI ) haha . About 2 hours v do the dreesing include changing the linen . It was so damn hot . I was sweating . After that i do Ryle's tube feeding for the same patients . Damn tired . haha. Thats all i can say for today . Even i was very tired but in my heart i was so happy cause i help people . Ok lah thats all for today . nw is ed 9.59pm and i heven't wash my cloths . hehe . Last thing i want to say is " we meke them cry who care for us . We cry for those who never care for us . And we care for those who will never cry for us " THIS IS TRUE OF LIFE , IT IS STRANGE BUT TRUE . ONCE U REALISE THIS , IT'S NEVER TOO LATE TO CHANGE . And last thing 2 man that i mention juz now u will always in my heart forever.